Sorry for the silence... again

Hey everyone,

First off, thank you for your patience. It’s been 56 days since my last update, and I want to be fully transparent with you all about what’s been going on.

To put it simply: life hit hard.

I’ve been struggling with mental health, specifically CPTSD, major depressive disorder, and generalized anxiety. These aren’t things I talk about lightly, but they’ve been flaring up in a way that’s made even the smallest tasks feel overwhelming. It’s taken a toll on me emotionally and creatively.

On top of that, I’ve realized I was unintentionally neglecting my relationship. It’s been a wake-up call, and I’ve been working to reconnect and rebuild something important that I didn’t even know was slipping.

Motivation’s been low. Creator’s block has been brutal. I still love Shadows of Elysium: Darkbound with all my heart, but there’ve been days where the spark just wouldn’t come. And honestly, when the support from the community feels like it’s fading, especially due to the use of AI, it only makes it harder. I use AI as a tool, not a crutch. It helps me, especially as a indie dev, bring the world to life more efficiently, not replace my creativity.

And beyond just game development, I’ve been running two Twitch channels, a YouTube, and a Spotify presence. Each platform needs content, time, and energy. It’s a lot. I don’t say that to complain, just to give you a full picture of what I’ve been managing behind the scenes.

I’m still here. I haven’t given up. I’m healing, I’m learning to balance, and I’m slowly climbing back into the space where I can create with love again.

Thank you for sticking around. For real.

More updates are coming, and I want the next one to reflect the passion that started all of this in the first place.

With gratitude,
Love, Ethyrya~